First “Crush?” Oh Goodness!
Eventually in everyone’s life there comes a time when they fall for someone, in a hetero normative world that means boy meets girl. But for me it’s a little bit harder…
Just about every afternoon I head down to a wonderful youth program for teenage queerlings like myself to hang out and have fun in an accepting group setting, sometimes this wonderful person (We’ll call him X) comes too and recently I’ve found myself hoping that X will be there when I’m there. A few days ago when I was trying very hard NOT to gaze longingly at X’s handsomely beautiful face and form I realized what had happened; I was in love with X. Sounds romantic right? Not so much, X has said that although he IS also Pansexual he does not often find more feminine forms attractive. (this is the part where I tell you that my body is quite feminine, with curves and the like)
X is also much more experienced then I am, this is quite intimidating. And if problems with my mind, my self image and his past are not enough there are so many people out there who refuse to see me as pansexual, they all think I only like women. And though other people should never keep you from love it makes it seem like it would be even WORSE if I were rejected…
Love is always complicated for queers and teens, so I guess it is ever more complicated for queer teens.
Your in queerness,
Posted on December 6, 2011, in Love, My Body, My Dreams and Wishes, The Future, The Present and tagged crush, cute, dreams, gender, handsome, latin, Love, me, pretty, queer, romance, self, sex, teen. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.